who do you say I am

Who do you say I am
I am a hero
who barely has it together

I push hard and climb mountains
and struggle on the big words.
I walk the dark of night,
but without another,
the lonely defeat the night.


As of yet, Montana has been an ego booster. Teaching PE is like constantly working out, every monday and wednesday running at least four miles, and every evening basketball practice. The weekends are full of great hikes or hanging out with the kids. Climbed a mountian, walked through a river, took an hour drive just to see the land out here. Everything I am trying I am doing well at, except those things I told myself to work on when I came out here. I was not good at scrable till I got out here. To one person I am opening doors, to another they have closed them before me, and I dont even know if my students care. I am here, doing my best, wanting to do more, but settling for getting in great shape, constantly being tested in gym, wondering how this fits into the big plan, and worrying about making the wrong descision...

I miss school, my friends, and the life of books
I love the moutnains, new friends, and working 11 to 14 hours a day...